All you need is love, right?
Suddenly I realized that I really love him, him and all about him.
Not just his outward appearance, - just him.
So, why does it hurt so much? I’m waiting. Every single day I’m waiting for him.. in vain..
Why do you don’t get, what you want, to be as happy as all of the others? Shouldn’t it be fair?
A few days ago he told me, he would love to talk to me and promised he would answer again soon. It sounds a bit like he misses me. But what happened? I'll tell you. He didn’t answer me even if I’m online and liking some silly posts of my friends on facebook just to make him pay attention to me. Now I know, he won’t hold his promises, because other people or another girl is more important. I get that.
Does it make him happy to see me broken? No? I don’t know, but the distance between us is too large and he stayed realistic. Sure, I cannot blame him for that, it would be wrong, but I kind of hate him too. Because real eyes realize real lies, but mine are dazzled by him.
However I wish, I could say that I don’t care, but I can’t. So, I still sit here and think about him, about the moments I wish he would be there and how the time flies, how I will come back to see his smile, to hear his laugh and to feel his touch. It could be so easy even if it’s only for a short time. He is like the song on my iPod, which I always skip, but never delete.!
My friends gave me the advice finally to forget him. In their opinion it is just a waste of time.
But I tell you that I won’t forget him. He is always on my mind and he always will be although I never wanted to say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away and forgetting. I don’t want to forget him, to forget what we had, but he already did it. I guess, I have to move on either.